My Foster Son Adam committed suicide 3 weeks ago November 2002 age 24
I got Adam when He was 2 weeks old and He was a Joy to have
My 2 children Natalie & Phillip were in their early teens when He arrived
His Mum let us have Him as She couldn’t look after Him
So We had this lovely little Boy and when He was 2years old I got Married
So Adam had another person to Love Him
His Mum came to see Him once in a while every couple of months or so
When He was about 4years old We asked if we could Adopt Him and
She was all set to sign the papers
Then She Met someone and decided to have Him Back and play Mummy
In time We Had to give in and send Him to live with Her although We tried hard not to
He was 5 and couldn’t understand Why He couldn’t live with us anymore
and kept running away to come to us
They as His family kept moving around to different Houses & schools
At 10years old He was still coming to Our House and wanting to stay
So I got all the Photos of Him with us put them in an album for Him to look at when He was sad
And told Him that We would always love Him And When He was older He could come home
So we saw Him often and when He met the Girl He fell in Love with He brought Her to meet us and She was
Lovely just after His 21st they had a still born son it was so sad
.the next year they had a lovely little Boy Ethan
But Adam found it hard to handle and left for a few weeks then We got Him to see what He was doing
and they both Worked it out and had a happy life last Christmas the Three of them had Xmas Day with all of us
And a month ago October 2002 they had a lovely little Girl
Adam was at the Birth and loved Her
But the next day He took off again His Mum rang to tell me and asked if I would ring Him
So I did and We talked about the new Baby and His Son and how much He loved them and their Mum
and He would Work it out and We would spend this Xmas all together again
He then said that He would never talk to His mum again and that He hated her so much
I told Him that We loved Him so much and would help in any way
The next Thursday night His mum rang me to say He had killed Himself in His car with the hose
I didn’t believe it
Why would this beautiful boy do this
The following Wednesday We went to see Him He looked so lovely
I held His face as I had done so many times
He was so cold all I wanted to do was to warm Him and bring Him back and stop this hurting
and then His partner came in She was so distraught I held Her until She settled down a little
We went back in to say goodbye to this Lad We had Loved so much
The next Day We went to His Funeral We Sat at the back as I had said my Goodbyes to Him
There were so many people there all were as bewildered as I, as to why He would leave us as He did .
Partner had the songs He liked played on tape
I think most of Us there just wanted to yell at Adam for killing Himself .
There were so many there .He must have been shocked to see how many loved Him
At the end We left still the deep sadness of losing this lovely Child with the beautiful smile
Hurts so much
Adam WHY